honest to blog.

hey guys, i swears i'm not dead! i've just been taking a break from the internet lately. i should have written something explaining this before just disappearing but the whole thing just got a little too stressful for me and i just HAD to get out for a bit. i've been missing the blog and all of you. if you've been waiting on things from me, i'm so very sorry i haven't gotten them to you. i'm not sure when i'm going to be able to, just to be honest.

so let me explain the disappearance of holly....if you have your own blog, i think you'll understand this a bit better. if not, try to follow along the best you can.
when you own a blog, a business, holding down a full time job (that isn't your business), dealing with life and are like me, dealing with the result of some supremely heavy family stress/ drama/ insanity (the death of my mother last year)....things can feel like they're kind of closing in on you. so i thought the best way to destress my life was to remove a few of these stressers. so i took a step back from the blog and the business for a few months to clear my head and get back to some sort of normal. the constant pressure of having to 'keep up with the blogging jones' is really heavy. you see these people in the blogiverse who's blogs are absolutely beautiful and amazing with these perfect blog posts and when you're just a little not-so-well known blog trying to keep up it becomes stressful. i know i've written about this before but i guess its something that i just have to come to terms with. i've just got to learn to be my own self and write just for fun and not for the page views. and i think this break that i've taken has given my perspective on the whole thing.

SO! i'm back. but i will tell you this. this blog is not going to be posting every single day. might not even be every week. but i'm going to be getting back into it slowly and trying to bring you things that i find interesting and fun. i'll be revamping the look here and there throughout the summer and fall. and hopefully, once i figure out a nice flow to this thing again, i'll be able to bring the blog back into full swing!!

hopefully you'll welcome me back with open hearts and eyes! you know i've miss you guys!

a vanishing act.

hey everybody. sorry i've been so absent recently. i've been trying to find a balance within my life the last few weeks. things keep changing so very drastically with my world lately and i've been struggling with it. i can't seem to find that middle ground of my personal life, my internet life, and my career. and as far as my career goes, i don't know where its going at this point. my internet life-i've been ignoring and that sucks. my personal life is just all kinds of topsy-turvey and its been just a whirlwind of insanity. so please stick with me, as soon as i get things smoothed out, i'll be back. i know some of you have emailed me in the past week or two and i'm trying to get to then, i promise i will soon! please stay patient. i just wanted to let you know whats been happening and that i'm still here, just not exactly here. ya know. i'll be back though.

a festival and one of the cutest baby boys i know!

hey guys!
i know, i know...these took me for ever to get up on to here! i apologize, but i think once you see them you won't be as upset with me anymore! haha! these are the photos from our time at pittsburgh step trek last weekend! we had a really nice time despite the lack of sales. the people were very nice (as usual) and the weather was just lovely. jessi, my dad and i were all that attended that day. amanda i think was out of town, or maybe she had to work. i can't really remember. jessi was working on her hats, i was frantically checking my phone (my boyfriend disappeared that weekend, he ran off to philly to watch a starcraft compition! haha!) and my dad was doing a little bit of wood work. he's been coming up with some really awesome designs and i can't wait to show you once he's finished!... after those photos, are the ones of my adorable nephew. he's not my nephew by blood, but he's the gorgeous son of one of best friends from college, april, and i love him like he was blood!

so enjoy the photo dump! <3

 ever seen a baby plank before??? me either!

 i'm so in love with this last one, even though its a little blurry. april is the most adorable mother, and i love watching her with bryson. its weird though, it feels like nothing has changed. like bryson should have always been there and her and josh should have always been married. they're the raddest family both of them are all tattooed and bryson is probably going to grow up to be one of the coolest kids! i'm just so glad i'm able to even be a part of it. i'm excited to watch this little bugger grow up! love you bryson.

 XOXO,
aunt holly

holly is poor at blogging.

at least i am this week. time has kind of slipped away from me this week, as far as the blog is concerned. i am working on a few things, but i don't want to rush through them and then have you all be disappointed, or maybe just disappoint myself with the quality of the post.
i'm leaving for indiana tonight, for quinn's cousin's wedding. and with packing, and cooking and crafting and all sorts of other things, i've gotten behind here on the blog. so i really do apologize. i've got tons of things to share with you and there's a good possibility that i'm going to just compile them all in one gggggiant post. or maybe not. that'd be overwhelming, right? right.

well, look forward to everything next week, as i adjust into this whole new chapter of my life. oh, what does she mean by this? yea, i completely forgot to mention it, as i was trying to be civil and keep it off the internet. well, i'll tell you briefly. i quit my job at the airbrush shop last week. things were going sour between my boss and i, i will not go into detail, that'd be rude. but it was becoming a hostile work environment and i felt it was time for me to move on. i'm using this time to figure out what it is that i actually want to do with my life and where i want to be. i don't want to just jump back into another job right away, and honestly, i don't think i could. my life is changing drastically, from the death of my mother, to things with this job. i'm alittle out of place at the moment and i'm doing my best to adjust. so hang tight, i am figuring things out! and i'll be back on a roll soon enough. you can count on that....i'm a karnes, it's what we do.

until later, stay good.

XOXO,
holly