this is most likely going to sound like a rant. in all actuality it probably is one, but whatever. i know this has been talked to death about over the blogosphere but more recently its been bothering me. you know those bloggers, the ones that look so absolutely perfect it makes you want to spit.....i wish i could be one of them. i'm not. i don't take a perfect photo every single time...most of the time it takes me at the very least 3-5 shots before i get one that i even like, and the majority of the time i'm hoping you can't see the planet that's growing on the side of my face. i don't do amazing things every day of my life and i can't post something interesting every day. i wish i could but i can't.
i admire these girls and how wonderful their lives seem. they don't appear to have financial issues, like i seem to constantly have. and they are able to buy all of these amazing clothes to wear and post every day and most of the time half of their wardrobe was given to them....lucky! i wish. i'm sure i sound bitter and cynical but i'm not trying to be. i just wondering if people are feeling the same. i guess when it comes right down to it, i wish i had their lives or at least the lives that they portray on their blogs. and i'm jealous of how gorgeous and blessed they are.
that sounds so horrible. but if i'm going to write something about this subject, i may as well be as honest as i can be. right? because isn't that the whole point. are these lives i'm so jealous of even real, or are they so completely fabricated that they don't even come close to real life. real lives are gritty and dirty, or at least they are in pittsburgh. shit. maybe everyone else out side of this old steel town has perfect weather and perfect hair 24/7 ...how would i know. but i think i would like to see more of reality in the blog world. because it seems like i'm sinking of late and i just want to know that i'm not the only one. i'm not the only one who's life isn't a constant flow of inspiration and perfect sales figures, or gorgeous dresses every other day and cupcakes that taste like fucking sunshine.
i don't want people to think i'm completely miserable though. yes, i am having some significant money issues at the moment and the majority of this entire year has sucked dick....but there are somethings in my life that are good. the people around me, the ones that truly care about me are amazing. my sister is a gem, and i don't know what i'd do without her. my dad and my aunt are my rock. my boyfriend brings a smile to my face just thinking about him, and i'm so very grateful i found such a great guy. and all of my friends are the shit! so my life isn't a complete disaster. but some of it really sucks. and to see these bloggers who's lives are just pristine is a kick to the stomach sometimes.
honestly though, i'm in a funk today. and i know that within a day or so, i'll be back on these blogs looking at these girls and finding them inspiring again. but who doesn't have days like this?
do you guys ever feel like this? do you ever get a case of blog jealousy?
**wow. i lost a follower....possibly because of this post. i didn't actually think that would happen. i know i've heard people say that they loose followers when they write things that are personal or not so upbeat...but really? why ....do you find it offense that i've spoken honestly??**